i miss my cat so fucking bad i feel like i’m going crazy

i lost my childhood cat and i dont know what to do with myselfreddit helpsorryi've cried so fucking much these past daysmy moms been in the hospital (shes home now)i thougjt i was getting better!!!!!!! oh fucking boy!!!!!!!!!!!!!that one talking bit of all eyes on me by bo burnhamAND THE FUNNIEST THING HAPPENEDi've never felt this much pain genuinely the way he passed was so fucking traumatizing i haven't talked about it outside of my mom and dadbut holy fuck dudei feel like i've been sick and hallucinating this past weekendim sick im sick im sick this is a nightmare i can wake upi hate this by the way i miss my fucking guy so much it's sickit's genuinely fucked up he isnt herehe was my only constant he was the only normal i had he was my entire worldfuck dude